This morning as the Lord allowed the breath of life to continue in my body, I began to think about my childhood. When I was putting away my passport from my recent trip from Nigeria, the first paper I saw was my birth certificate. When I was born, the birth certificates were black and coated with a film of wax – my guess is to preserve it. I began reading; I was born at Riverside Hospital in Toledo, Ohio. My mother was 19 years old when she gave birth. She was also tested for syphilis May 1947. The “Industry or Business” blank said home. My mother wasn’t employed at the time I was born. My weight was 6 lbs 6 ounces, born at 8:40 pm. Then as I read further there was an empty spaced and I paused took a deep breath to try and stop myself from crying, but they were asking for the “Father of the Child” and this space on the blacked waxed birth certificate was blank. Why hadn’t my father signed my birth certificate? I have pondered this question in another way — why did he choose not to be in my life? I will die never knowing the answer to my questions.
How many blank spaces are in your life?
Ever wonder if it was because of something you did or didn’t do. If we stay focused on the blank space and not look at it as an opportunity to become more than the space represents, the blank space can entrap us. I have often thought I was rejected; he just didn’t want me. My mother never talked about my dad and neither did the family. So I filled in the blank space with my own thought. Those thoughts brought me to a place of hurt, despair, hopelessness and pain. It wasn’t until today that the though crossed my mind – maybe he wanted to fill that blank space, but was never given the chance. Could he have loved me from a distance? Did he want to reach out but every time he tried he was rejected?
The mind has a way of filling in the answers of the unknown with dark and weary stories. I often wondered why we are so quick to make a negative judgement when there aren’t enough facts or truth to truly fill in the blank. Disappointments eat away at our emotions and cause us to live in a place the Lord never designed for us tor reside. The truth is, you can choose your thoughts and the reactions – and choose to use that blank for your good. According to Jeremiah 29:11 “For I know, who knows, the Almighty Jehovah, the thoughts that I think towards you, saith the Lord, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.” This lets me know The Creator isn’t surprise by the blanks in our lives; He is also the only one that can fill them.
If you take a moment to read further in the text our Daddy always will have a helping hand IF we just call upon Him. Jeremiah 29:12-14 (a) “Then shall ye call upon me and ye shall go and pray unto me, and I will harken unto you. And yet shall seek me, and find me, when you search for me with all your heart. And I will be found of you saith the Lord; and I will turn away your captivity.”
The Lord desires to fill your blank spaces and set you free.
It’s time to take a step towards filling the empty places in our lives with the love of God. That will help you step into a place of strength, fortitude and a new beginning. I may never know why the blank space is on my birth certificate; but I trust The One who does, more than the black waxed form recording my birth. Why you ask? And I’m glad you did, because Jesus filled in the blank years ago when I made the choice to allow Christ to be my everlasting Father. It is Jesus who really knows me and has a plan for my life. The same Messiah has a plan for you. I decided to fill my blank space with the name Jesus because I’m not a fatherless child. When you go to those blank places in your life just fill them with the love and character of Jesus.